Gratitude diary!


Not sure if this blog can end up being a continuation of my previous one (https://jayceemoon.com/2020/04/29/be-positive-a-way-of-life/ ) but I aim to that! The more thankful you are, the more positivity you attract.

Be grateful, indeed! I am not sure when I started to focus on gratefulness, I may have doing it unconsciously before I set it up as part of my daily routines. As far as I can think it was the end of August 2017! You may be wondering why I can remember that with such clarity. Let me fill you in: I had moved to Ireland to make my dream come true (that is for sure another blog, coming soon indeed) and I was struggling to find a job. I was getting close to having to go back when I was offered a role on the 24th of August! You cannot imagine how grateful I was! The following morning as I was driving to work, I could only say to myself how lucky I was, having a job was allowing me to fulfil my dream! It was then when gratefulness became part of my everyday life!

Waking up, getting out of bed being thankful for having found a job was there every single day on my way to work! Radio was always on, so whenever an upbeat song was being played, there I was, thanking the universe!  Depending on the day I also added a couple of more positive thoughts. Eventually, it settled down as powerful habit. Despite having had a bad night sleep, although things weren’t going as planned, regardless of those blue days, gratefulness had become my companion!

Time went by, life surprised me with its weird twists and gratitude diluted. It never abandoned me though, it faded a bit but we sailed the ocean together. Last year, my life coach recommended me to start a gratitude diary on numerous occasions, I guess I was not in the frame or the mood to go for it. Experience has taught me that, only when you are ready, you will find time and motivation. No matter how persuasive others can be, one needs to be willing to! At the end of the day, a piece of advice is just a piece of advice. I do not hang onto any regrets for having taken my time to process and digest things. Just another reason to be proud, indeed!

Four weeks ago, thanks to both my partner and the current situation, I found myself digging a notebook out of my drawer. The right time had come!!! The urge was there, a new challenge had to be set! What an exciting journey ahead! Having the thrill empowers you to go for it! My gratitude diary was born! Happy out, I said to myself!

It is said that it takes 21 days (3 weeks) for a habit to form. After having done 30 days, I can state my gratitude diary routine has settled down! It can be tough to remain positive and have the strength to be grateful when difficult times surround you. Hardship definitely makes everything more valuable! Overall, it has been so rewarding, as well as addictive! I have ensured that I had time to myself to put it down in my notebook, to relish it, to treasure it. I have surprisingly come across more than just one thing to be thankful for! It is easier to presume there is nothing there to be appreciative of rather than cheering those little things which bring a spark into our days.

On top of this, it has made me realise how lucky I am. Having grounds to be grateful for brings along a rainbow of positive thinking. Despair can easily drag you down, gratitude can lift you up. There is a tight connection between gratefulness and positivity: the first one is a strong magnet for the second one. Be grateful so you can enhance your positive way of life!

A smile, a glance, a ray of sunshine, a raindrop, a touch, a kiss. Even in the darkest moments, there is always something to be thankful for!

Even in the darkest moments, there is always something to be grateful for!

Jay Cee Moon ©


Be positive, a way of life!

It is raining today, grey and apparently miserable out there! It is so tempting and effortlessly addictive to focus on the dark negative side of things. Negativity has a weird power to take control of our minds. In the blink of an eye, it turns up and powerful as a tsunami washes your positive thoughts away. You find yourself trapped in the swirls of pessimism and desolation. Hopelessly devoted to a deep well without access to the surface. Dramatically drained by a twister of blackness. You can help giving in! I have been there, still am sometimes but nowhere closer to as much as I used to!

I think I have been negative enough so far! Let’s be positive, because there is hope out there! Ohhh yeah! Mind can be trained to focus on the bright side of life as Monty Python sang! Not easy but very rewarding! Over the years I have had the privilege to learn from others around me. Seeing how they face and cope with life has been an incredible gift! My creative magni (as per my previous blog https://jayceemoon.com/2020/04/08/one-day-more-one-day-less/ ), always encouraging me to stay positive, reminding me to smile more.

My brother also. He probably doesn’t know the influence he has had on my positive life approach transformation. He has unconsciously been teaching me the power of an optimistic way of life. Despite having been through a lot, he has always held on with a remarkable ear-to-ear grin. Always looking for those little things that bring so much joy. One of his quotes is: “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade”. Just turn something sour, bitter and difficult into something positive! Despite being a bit younger than me, his endurance to remain positive is outstanding. Massive thanks!

More recently, my partner! He is probably one of the most positive person I have ever met!!!   Evergreen positive mindset. Always carrying a broad smile on his face. He is capable of finding the bright side in the most difficult situation. His action plan is to positively focus on the here and now and to look forward to the future. Constantly encouraging me to snap out of those low moments and walk them off, so I can change my state of mind and radiate positivity. He has given me the last kick for me to hugely progress on my positive way of life path.

The more positive I am, the more positivity I draw into my life. The more positivity I bring in, the more I relish life. The more I enjoy life, the happier I am! What you think it is what you attract! It takes great effort to create a new habit but the outcomes are priceless! A year and a half ago I was driving back from The Hill of Tara when I got stuck behind a tractor! My first reaction was to complain about it, but then my positive approach kicked in! I turned up the music, fully opened the window and took in as much I could: the fresh air, the sun shining through the trees, the colour of the fields, singing along! What an enjoyable experience it became! To my surprise, I completely forgot about the tractor in front of me! It is just a matter of creating a positive reaction practice: we cannot control what happens to us but can definitely learn how to positively react to it.

You can find positivity everywhere, in everything and whenever you are ready for! Even though it may look unachievable, it is easily doable! Get up with a smile every morning. Be grateful for every single little chance life offers you. Admire the beauty that surrounds you. Embrace the sunshine, the rain, the clouds, the blue skies, the stars, the moon. Cherish what nature presents you with: that tiny flower making its way through the foliage, that unexpected butterfly flying next to you, the birds singing out loud, the water flowing down the hill after heavy rain. Breath in the pretichor, the sea breeze, the smell of freshly made coffee. Savour the taste of homemade jam, the joy of cooking, a nice meal al fresco. Squeeze every second, every opportunity. Just take a deep breath and smile.

Life wakes us up with plenty of choices to be positive! Don’t waste them! Make “be positive” your way of life! You will never regret it, for sure! As Buddha said:  “We are what we think! “

Jay Cee Moon ©


The storm seems to be over; puddles are now a pool for the birds. The sun is shinning again, petrichor is still around. The courtyard lushness enhances the view from the kitchen. Inspiration is definitely here and so is my cup of tea.

A while ago I was talking to one of my students and she said something that piqued my curiosity. We were chatting about plans for the weekend when she told me that Sunday was her “nothing to do time”. What? Nothing? How come? I was shocked but at the same time eager to figure out how to teach myself how to do nothing without feeling guilty about it. I am always on the go, keeping myself as busy as possible, having never ending “to do” lists. In other words, I find it difficult to just sit down and do absolutely nothing. When I am not doing “this” I am doing “that”. If I manage to sit down, it is just to think what to do next. Do I really need to be busy all the time? Does it make sense to be always doing something without a break? Do I really need to push myself that far? Her words stuck in my mind.

We are always running, trying to get thinks done, just because this is the way we were brought up. We are always far too busy, aiming to finish all our chores, just because we think this is how life is supposed to be.  We are always worried we will not have enough time for all our tasks, just because we are constantly reminded of the importance of accomplishments. We are always overloading ourselves with meaningless responsibilities, just because the focus remains on what it has been achieved. We are always thinking tomorrow will be too late, just because postponing is not the right thing to do. We are often forgetting that booking some downtime is vital. We are often ignoring that rest is essential. We are often overlooking the need of doing nothing. The power of guilt is so strong. The power of shame is so cruel. The power of failure is so devastating. But in fact, we should not feel guilty for having nothing to do. We should not be ashamed of not being busy. We should not feel like failing for not getting things done.  It is simply ok not to be doing anything.

Nothingness should be part of our daily or weekly routines. Since doing nothing is not a crime. I can assure it is a good way of looking after ourselves indeed. Downtime is not being lazy, it is not procrastinating, it is not slackness. There is not anything wrong with making sure, we have time to do nothing. We should not be judging our need for downtime, accusing ourselves of not being disciplined enough or even worse, stigmatising our behaviour as inadequate. I so often run myself down for wasting time by doing nothing. I so often tell myself off for not being productive. I so often look down on myself for not making much progress. Every now and again, I even find myself getting annoyed for just pottering around and letting my mind wander. One day, I will be able to enjoy my downtimes without guilt. One day, I will be capable of doing nothing and feeling great. One day, I will be ready to just chill out and appreciate the peace of mind by doing nothing.

The storm is back, puddles are now a pool of circles. The sun is hiding behind those dark clouds, raindrops falling symphony. The courtyard is soaked, raindrops draw a lavish picture. My cup of tea is finished but the candle is now burning. Inspiration is still here.

Downtime, still struggling with it. I do have a long journey ahead, but I am making some progress though. The other day, my partner said to me that he was going to lay down and rest, he looked at me and added “I guess you will keep buzzing around as you always do”. He was wrong, I joined him, laid down and did nothing but rest. I did not feel guilty afterwards. Improving!

Downtime, time to do nothing at all! No guilt, no shame, no failure.

Jay Cee Moon ©

The unknown path…

I cannot even think of the last time I sat in front of my laptop to write on my blog! The only thing that I am sure is that it was a dull day, I had my cup of tea, a candle trying to brighten up the room and my inspiration was on fire! It feels like a Groundhog Day as it is miserable out there, heavy rain, strong gusts of wind, my cup of coffee is here and so is the candle. I can feel that my inspiration is on its way. Let’s get those words make sense!

I though that once I had time to myself, I would be unstoppably writing on my blog. I guess my mind had other plans, I just simply got the priorities wrong. Four months ago, I quit my job. It was dragging my down and draining my energy. It did not come as an easy decision to make but I knew it was the right thing to do. Do not get me wrong, it was not definitely something that happened overnight. Plenty of hours invested in shutting up the devil gremlin which kindly kept reminding me I should not be quitting my job. But life is far too short to be stuck in a role which does not intellectually challenge you anymore. Not only was I demotivated but also wasting my time. I had no idea of what I would be doing next, I just needed to get myself out of there. Bravery and eagerness had won again! Proud for simply being true to myself.

So here I am four months later having finally found time to get down to my blog. Time flies, doesn’t it? The thing is, I have kept myself busy, doing what I had not had a chance to do for a long time. Spending hours in the garden while enlightening my soul with the sound of birds and the smell of the new blossoms; simply sitting outside soaking up with sun while relishing my morning coffee; listening to music and singing along, even daring to dance; being creative and eager to come up with new ideas for my hand painted stones; going for long walks as well as discovering hidden corners; ensuring to have time for my mind to rest; driving with no rush to the supermarket whilst that powerful song is being played; putting time aside to think and process those thoughts trapped in my mind; being aware of the importance of my wellbeing;  smiling to the red sky at the sunset wondering what the next day would bring. The joy of being here and now!

Once again in my life, I stepped out of my comfort zone. It may be addictive. The power of having the reins of your life is priceless. It is like being on a rollercoaster and feeling the adrenaline running all over your body. Scary at the same time though as unexplored paths can be foggy, steep and narrow. But once you have done it, you feel you can do it again since the fears are less. The comfort of the known unknown. Being aware of my own limits as well as strengths has guided me along the journey and made it a bit easier. Being able to handle those old gremlins of mine has loosened the ties of my self-judgement. Being capable of savouring each step I have taken has been the perfect icing on my cake.

As I am moving forward along the path, the fog seems to be vanishing. I still cannot see the end but that is fine. When needed I stop, to savour the views of the path I have already walked, to appreciate where I am now, to embrace what is ahead of me. When needed I take a deep breath, to recover from those steep steps, to take in what is around me, to charge batteries for the next steps. When needed I give myself a tap on the shoulder for what I have already achieved, for me to enjoy the present moment, for me to gain strength to continue my path. Despite not knowing where I am going yet I am sure that I will end up finding that turn which is awaiting me somewhere along the way.

Four months ago, I decided to follow an unknown path… I still do not know where it will take me to, but I will keep enjoying every single second of it. As someone once said, it is not the destination but the journey!

Jay Cee Moon ©

A place called loneliness…

Not sure what happened to my inspiration, it abandoned me on New Year’s Eve. It has been gone for several weeks, as if it has been hibernating, taking some time off. It is grand though, it is what it is. We so often do try to push things rather than going with the flow. Luckily, it seems to be around again, somehow at least, despite the gusts of freezing cold wind outside. May the title of my new blog sound a bit depressing; it surely matches the bitter winter embracing us at the moment. Needless to say, there will be plenty of positive twists.

Another difficult topic to openly write about but at the end of the day, it is part of who I am, of my uniqueness. One of those old gremlins of mine which I am still learning to live with.  It has been around for so long that one would think I should be well used to hanging out with him. On the contrary, I am still struggling to cope with. It is powerful, as if it could not be defeated. Definitely one of those you would rarely welcome in for a cup of tea, not even on a cold winter evening. Years go by and there he still is, determined to pay me a visit as he pleases, obviously without notice.

Loneliness turns up unexpectedly. It hits me by surprise with the strength of a devastating tsunami. Untimely disappointing, unpredictably inconvenient, unannouncedly inopportune, out of the blue, there he goes. The coldness of solitude embraces me, the darkness of isolation imprisons me, the bewilderment of incomprehension takes over me. Tears roll down my face completely out of control. Although I do not want to be alone, no one can see me like this. Tears roll down my face unstoppably out of command. Despite desperately needing a hug, nobody can trespass my barriers. Tears roll down my face, uncontrollably out of reach. In spite of requiring the warmth of a chat, I am too embarrassed to talk. Tears roll down my face, I am in a place called loneliness.

There was a time when I desperately wanted to be capable of annihilating this old gremlin of mine. Life taught me a great lesson: he was here to stay! I have now somehow managed to educate myself in how to live with him. One cannot swim against the stream for too long. When on trouble waters you’d better off just staying as safe as possible so you do not drain your energy. Hold fast, keep swimming close to the shore, do not stop breathing. Remain calm, do not let your fears betray you, make sure panic does not conquer your mind. Stay positive, have faith, do not give up. At some point you will reach calmer waters. Whenever aloneness shows up, I avoid the old battle approach. I simply let it be to let it go.

Rather than hating myself for not being able to get rid of this horrendous, upsetting and overwhelming dark side of mine; in lieu of loathing myself for not having enough strength to avoid the unforeseen storm; instead of strongly disliking myself for surrendering to the depths of solitude… I choose to accept that this gloomy me is who I am. I do sometimes go to a place called loneliness but there is nothing wrong with it. Every now and then, I do give in to feeling miserable and misunderstood but it is ok to do so. Once in a while, I let myself down and cry a river but it is fine!

Tears roll down my face, I am in a place called loneliness… I hug myself while whispering that I will be ok… I just need to hold on, the storm will soon be over… I then smile!

Jay Cee Moon ©

I am pretty, I am sexy!

We so often become our worst critics, so inflexible, so ruthless, so harsh. We so often forget to be kind to ourselves. We so often ignore our uniqueness, our beauty, our bright aura!

It has been a while since this blog has been playing on my mind, I guess I was not ready. I could even dare to say the brave girl in me was scared.  Is it such a big deal? Or am I making it such a massive ordeal? When one is used to being unkind to oneself it becomes such a deep-rooted habit that it feels weird to just be nice. I am pretty, I am sexy, I am me!

A few weeks later here I am back to what I was supposed to have published but still unfinished! It is 31st of December, back to lockdown and it is snowing. Hopefully, the magic of the scenery outside will lead my words to my last blog of 2020!

Why am I so hard on myself? Why can I not see the beauty on me? Why do I get trapped with the stereotypes of a society that enhances the majority? We are told to be like the models on the magazines, to be what our parents think it matches the standards of the multitude, to become prisoners of a successful well-paid job? We are asked to follow the patterns, to obey the rules of normality, to not get off the beaten track, to stuck with what the rest considers acceptable, to adhere to social requirements, to get rid of what makes us unique, to give up our crazy dreams, not to quit that job we hate because it pays the bills. We are just asked to be like the crowd and by doing that we bury our individuality.

The world keeps reminding us that we are not beautiful, not sexy, not worth it; that we are too fat, too distinct, too nerd; not intelligent enough, not capable enough, not suitable enough. Sadly, we do believe we are too different to fit in. Focusing on suiting takes us to the madness of losing ourselves. But the thing is: does it really matters? We are what we are, I am what I am!

Not sure if all of this leads to where I want to, I may have probably been going round in circles to avoid facing those gremlins of mine. I often look at the mirror to only see a mid forties overweight woman not pretty enough. How cruel is that! These words, these thoughts, there beliefs just darken my aura, just kill my worth, just bury my potential. Why cannot I be nice to myself? If I look at the mirror again with a smile on my face while reminding me that I am pretty, I am sexy… my own reflection changes completely. A simple smile, a kind gesture, just a wink, a tap on my shoulders… can uplift my morale so I am able to see my beauty!

2020 is coming to an end, just a few hours left, maybe time for my new year’s resolutions? Be kind to myself by looking at the mirror and being able to strongly confidently say: I am pretty, I am sexy, I am me!

For those out there struggling to see their own beauty… Despite what others say, we are all beautiful. Behind those extra pounds, that peculiar way of dressing, the weight of the years one has lived, there is always a pretty human being.

Get “I am what I am” by Gloria Gaynor ready, turn the volume up and feel the prettiness, the sexiness embracing you! You are special, you are talented, you are unique.

I am pretty, I am sexy, I am me. I am proud of myself!  

Jay Cee Moon ©

Making memories!

Life is too short therefore you cannot afford to waste any chances life blesses you with. Make the most out of every instant. If we all kept in mind that “later can be too late”, we would be busy trying to seize the moment we have to relish. Sadly, we tend to postpone projects, what we really want to be doing, and far too often, those little things that make us happy. We just get stuck in that so addictive comfort zone, therefore we become prisoners of our fears. What others will say, what if I do not succeed, how long it would take me to get there, where I will end up, who I am going to leave behind, what sort of excuse I am going to come up with to break with all my ties. No wonder why we just put off our dreams! No wonder why we no longer do what provides us with happiness. No wonder why we forget to cherish those little things!

It is no surprise that one day we wake up and realise that we are living a life that does not match our values, expectations and needs. A life that no longer means anything to us, neither bring us laughter nor makes us feel alive. A life where we are mere spectators, where we feel trapped, where we do not fit anymore in. A life that unimaginably has become ours. How come? Never mind, do not lose yourself trying to figure it out. It is what it is, be brave and move forward! So easy to think it is too late to change, to do what makes us happy, to live our life to full. What a big mistake to make! Not too late, not impossible, not shameful. Still plenty of time left, still possible, still something to be proud of!

It does not have to be glamorous, extraordinary, luxurious. You do not need to spend lots of money, have lots of time, go somewhere else. It does not have to be a massive turnaround, or a life changing decision. Just open your eyes widely and enjoy what you have around you. That ray of sun coming through the window while working from home, getting home to the smell of a freshly baked cake, that nice chat with the shop assistant at the supermarket, sharing that meme that has made you laugh, that unexpected bunch of flowers being delivered to you, that song on the radio reminding you how lucky you are. Once you start being here and now, appreciating what you have, taking in every single minute… your life will become a better place for you to be in. Big changes will eventually take place, for sure, so do not worry too much.

Cherish what you have and let things be. Life is about making memories, because if you are crafting them you are definitely alive. Life is about gathering memories, because if you are collecting them you are certainly getting the most out of it. Life is about enjoying memories, because if you are savouring them you are undoubtedly having the time of your life!  

Do not focus on the big life changing project, otherwise you will miss out your present. Do not concentrate on what is still yet to come, or the future will become your worst enemy. Do not centre on those things you cannot change or which are out of your control, otherwise you will feel helpless. Focus on creating lots of new memories instead! By doing so your life will be just yours, you will be able to shape your happiness and you will not feel trapped anymore. Grab all the opportunities which cross your path, carpe diem.

Remain true to your inner self, stay calm when the storms hit you, hold on to your here and now. When you feel stuck in a moment remind yourself what you do have, smile, breath and remember that there are lots of those little things to be happy for: the cat staring at you asking for some milk, the raindrops rolling down the window on a grey wintery day, the candle flicking wile the tea is being brewed, your partner’s eyes reaching yours with a smile, the excitement of sending an unexpected postcard to a friend of yours, the wind hauling outside at night whilst you are wrapped in bed, the views of a misty morning while driving to work, the autumn coloured leaves on the side of the road, a kiss being blown to you…

Moments count so make loads of memories!

Jay Cee Moon ©

The Music of life!

I am looking out of the window, just a miserable dull day. Lots of rain, windy, not too cold, pretty dark indeed. It would have been very easy to give in and feel down, to mirror the greyness of the day. It would have been effortless to let sorrow conquer my mood, feeling sorry for myself. It would have been not difficult to surrender and let my soul be wrapped with coldness. Oh yeah, all very tempting. It feels like the weather is reflecting the anger, the helplessness, the fears, the sadness, the loneliness, we are all feeling today after the announcement yesterday of another six weeks lockdown.  However, I got out of bed with a smile on my face, another day to live, another chance to make memories, another 24 hours to relish. I turned the radio on so the good vibes of songs could embrace me.

The music of life! The power of songs, they can make you cry but at the same time they can uplift your spirits! If someone ask me to arrange a playlist with my fifty favourite songs, I would not be able to just sum up the songs of my life to such a low number. Music is my life, it comes with me wherever I go. Driving, washing the dishes, writing, out walking, admiring the beauty of nature, working, gardening, being creative with my crafts. Always there, offering me great comfort, great company, great energy. Definitely something I could not live without!

Music nourishes you. Music empowers you. Music lifts you up. It is more than just a mere melody, it is somehow the mirror of your soul. I once read that when someone shares their favourite songs with you, embrace them, because they are giving you a glimpse into their soul. I couldn’t agree more indeed. They hold memories, places you once visited, words that were never said, dreams ready to become true, feelings and emotions deeply hidden. They also bring peace to a restless mind as well as suffocate the anger in you.

A song can make tears roll down your face, make you laugh, make you sing along, make you dance, make you want to run, make you feel lonely, make you smile, make you dream, make you want to live life to full. A melody is capable of taking you back on time, letting you fly to enchanting places, of bringing back memories, of setting you on fire, of hugging you close on low moments, of freeing you from tight chains, of lighting the darkness of down day. So true. So worthy. So powerful!

If I were asked to choose a song today, I would go for “Good Riddance (Time of your life)” by Green Day. For what it is worth it was worth all the while! If you are not feeling great… press play, turn up the volume and let your soul soak in the moment of good vibes! Always remember: Carpe Diem as time flies!

Jay Cee Moon ©

What I can do!

Here I am again! I though it was just a few weeks since my last blog but time seems to have flown. It has actually been more than a month, which is definitely not good. Taking into account what writing means to me, I would dare to say, it is a disaster! Now that cooler days are here, now that sun sets earlier, now that life seems to have stopped again, I have set time aside so I can publish regularly.

I was listening to a radio programme one of those boring mornings  working from home. Although I cannot remember much about it some words stuck on me: we are always focusing on what we cannot do, cannot have, cannot reach… rather than moving to the approach of what we can do. Those words made me think, they have been chasing me around since then, indeed. I am now smiling to myself as I admire a flock of birds migrating to a warmer land as winter is starting to emerge. What if they got trapped on the thought of “we cannot survive in this cold weather, we are going to die”? Those creatures are clever enough to see what they can do, fly somewhere else!

As simple as that: when stuck in a moment, in a situation, in a place, … just head off to somewhere else. You do not need to get yourself a plane ticket to the moon but just change your thoughts so you can see what can be done. You will be surprised as lots of different options come to you: it is just a simple click. Even in the most desperate circumstances one is capable of glimpsing some sort of light at the end of the tunnel.  When you say to yourself there is nothing I can do, you are wrong… there is always something you can change, something you can plan, something you can consider doing. I have been there myself so many times. Trapped in the catch 22 of my own believes and deductions, not being able to step out and be proactive in order to reshape my path. The power of positive thinking is amazing and in the blink of an eye I have moved myself to a what I can do mode! As if a brainstorm had been arranged my mind has effortlessly set up a new scenario with enough steps to follow so success is there to come.

I have also learned that talking things through is vital since we are often blinded by our negative thinking process. Letting someone listen to us can easily dismantle our biased approach. I know, it is tough as we have to expose our inner demons but it is immensely rewarding! When our thoughts reach others, they vanish one after each other in a domino effect. What we assumed was unchangeable, changes; what we consider as unmovable, moves; what we judged as impossible, becomes possible. I have recently been told that I am the only one stopping myself to succeed, not that I did not know that! So true, because when we are caught on the lap of misbelief we forget what we are capable of. At the end of the day, we do have the power to change our thoughts so we can defeat the fear of failure.

Our minds are very powerful, they can drag you down to the well of sorrow as well as lift you up so you can touch the sky. Let them fly us to the moon!

Jay Cee Moon ©

Unexpectedly unexpected!

I am back and no time is also back! Since mid June work has taken over most of my time again, or should I say my energy? I spend seven and a half hours a day in front of the laptop fully focused on reading and more reading. You can all imagine that once I log out the last thing I am willing to be doing is keep on staring at a screen. I only feel like going outside to take care of my plants and get lost in the pleasure and peace of some fresh air, flowers and birds singing. Needless to say, guilt has occasionally turned up, just to kindly remind me that my blog has been left unattended. Sometimes, we just need to accept there is nothing we can do and there is no space for feeling guilty! It is definitely not worth it!

Unexpectedly unexpected, I have the chance to sit down and write today. I am going to make the most of out it so I can finish, polish and publish my blog. Candle on my table, soft music playing on, a cup of tea together with a piece of homemade chocolate and yogurt cake, dark threatening clouds, smell of rain in the air, time to put all my thoughts and ideas together. Perfect setting to let my imagination lead my inspiration. All those words that have been boiling in my mind for the last couple of months are ready to be released. So excited!

How many times do we say to ourselves “I wasn’t expecting that”? Life is full of surprises. Because when we think there is no way out in a tough situation, when we get stuck in a place we do not belong to, when we feel nothing is going to change because we do not deserve it, when we believe that we do not have any other options rather than carrying on, when we are convinced that no matter how hard we try we will still not succeed, when we surrender to our self-pity gremlin…  Live proves us wrong! Isn’t that amazing? Unexpectedly unexpected our dreams come true, our wishes become reality and our hopes turn into our present. This is the magic of life!

All our worries, negative thoughts and despair disappear in the blink of an eye, as if they had not existed. We cannot help it but ask ourselves if the worrying and overthinking was needed or even worth it. As time goes by, probably due to more experience and a thicker skin. I have learnt to let things flow avoiding that unnecessary stressful uncertainty. I have to admit that every now and then I find myself trapped in a cul-de-sac situation where nothing seems to be making sense. I just take a deep breath, remind myself of all I have achieved and smile, while saying to myself that I will be grand. That change, that job, that chance will be there for me in due course. Because things always work out somehow. Because nothing lasts forever. Because hope is the last thing ever lost!

Never let the future rule your present, otherwise you will end up not living your life. Focus on the here and now, work hard for your dreams and… Unexpectedly unexpected that door will open, that impossible will become possible and what seemed out of reach will be there for you!

Jay Cee Moon ©

The road I had to walk alone!

It is been a while since my last blog, needless to say my brain has been busy working on this new one. Ideas, words and lines have been boiling up there as if a magic potion was being brewed. A few changes in my life as another dream has come true, greatly unexpected though. And no, I have not published a book yet, I am living in the middle of the countryside! Which means, my dream number three is now covered (https://jayceemoon.com/2020/05/29/dream-big/). I will soon have to arrange a new wish list. We usually forget that life is what happens to us while we are busy making plans, don’t we? With the heavy rain outside, the smell of petrichor is joining me in this new blog.

Let’s focus on the road I had to walk alone otherwise I will easily get lost on the depths of my latest turns and new dreams to be set. I do have to say that when I started the solo path I was confused and scared, but at the same time very determined to go ahead. I just simply knew I had to walk that path, as if I owed it to myself. Willingness can keep you going without you having to question the need of the journey. I tied up the laces of my shoes and there I was, ready to wander the unknown lonely walk of life.

I vaguely remember the early stages, probably because the enjoyment began before I thought it would. Was this due to the fact that I was in desperate need for this solo adventure? I guess so, as being on my own became the best companion I could have wished for at that time. I unexpectedly found myself in the joys of rediscovering me, of understanding my soul, of accepting who I was. What I expected would be a painful pilgrimage, turned out to be a very pleasant endeavour. It is amazing how life can surprise you! I do recall a wise piece of advice of a good Irish friend: “Do not get lost in the obsession of reaching the end of your road otherwise you will miss out the treasure of enjoying each and every step you take.” I kept that in mind along the way, albeit I was seizing the moment even in the toughest turns and bends of my voyage.

Solitude, the big feared one. Doing everything by myself, another concern. My determination made them both fade so I was able to learn to be comfortable on my own skin. I drove thousands of kilometres, I discovered lots of hidden corners along the emerald isle, I walked and walked. I read many books, I wrote down my thoughts, I listened to thousands of songs. I bought food, I cooked delicious meals, I drank wine, gin and red ale. I had my hair and nails done, I purchased a few smart dresses, I got myself nice perfumes. I went on holidays, I treated myself out, I enjoyed the pleasure of coffee and cake many Saturday mornings. I stopped in the middle of the road to take pictures, I went to the beach on stormy nights, I felt the rain on my skin. I bought myself flowers, I relished soapy baths with candles, I savored the guilty pleasure of dark chocolate. I found myself and cherished me being me.

I also came to know that until we are comfortable in our own skin we should not welcome anyone into our lives. We tend to seek love outside rather than loving ourselves first. We ignore our lacks and request others to cover them. I had been expecting others to do what I was supposed to do. That was for sure the most difficult part of my solo path, taking responsibility for my own happiness, for my self-love. What a lesson!

This has been the road I started three years ago today. Many ups and downs, thousands of pictures taken, lots of lessons learnt, tons of great adventures, loads of memories made. Unforgettably unforgettable, no regrets at all! I can only be thankful to have had the chance of mastering the art of accepting myself and being proud of who I have become over the years.

Happy three years anniversary to me & me!

Jay Cee Moon ©

Dream big!

I am back, just in case you may have thought I had given up my blog!!! It is just that my inspiration decided to take some time off, it could be related to the fact I was off last week too and I was gifted with the joy of the outdoors. I guess it was some sort of mutual agreement!

Dreams do come true!

“Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you will land among stars” as someone once said.

Do not hesitate and dare to dream big!

If you just sit down to focus on the impossibility, nothing will happen. If you get overcome by the winding and steep road ahead, you will never start the journey. If you do not give yourself a chance, you will for sure regret it. Therefore, load yourself with lots of strength, commitment, determination and a will of steel so you don’t get swayed from your way to your dreams! Do not expect a smooth path or a bed of roses! Get ready for lots of stumbling blocks, drawbacks and despair! Don’t give up, go all the way and eventually you will wake up to your dream having come true!

The most important step is to identify your dream or dreams! Easy task for me as I am always making plans! Two of my three dreams have been following me for a while, the last one came up after my first one came true! Let me fill you in with my three dreams list. Moving to Ireland has been at the top of my list for ages. Writing & publishing a book is just right behind as my passion for writing goes back to my early teenage years. Having a small cottage in the Irish West Coast / countryside with a garden has become my number three recently!  

I first came to Ireland when I was seventeen, just a teenager one would say. But the emerald isle instantly caught both my heart and soul. I got trapped by that Irish Celtic deep connection, the rural way of life, the warmth of its people, the beauty of its countless hidden gems and the constant soul healing feeling. Since then, I had always wanted to move there. In 2017, I left everything behind to make my dream come true!  I will be soon celebrating my third anniversary in this amazing island which has become home to me, unbelievable! Those words have been said and written down so many times as my answer whenever I have been asked why I moved to Ireland… and now are part of my blog! Goose bumps moment!

Amazingly rewarding despite the sacrifices made and all those moments when I felt like surrendering! Dreams come along with a price, it is scary but letting fears win has never been my choice! What a journey it has turned out to be, needless to say hopelessness took over in several occasions. It was a leap of faith in the unknown future, terrifying but I owed to myself, it was my dream! It involved lots of planning, considering, worrying, saving, searching, reflecting, working hard and a bit of panicking. Finding myself at the edge of a cliff a couple of times was tough, that dreadful feeling of desolation and helplessness. When you sense you are about to fail, when you think you do not have any strength left, when you lose your confidence… then you realise that when it comes to your dreams there is always success, energy and faith left! You just pull yourself together and carry on! You can do it, I kept saying to myself! I endured the heavy load over my shoulders as I was not going to give up!

One day, I woke up to my dream having come true! All my struggles, worries and low moments turned into a colourful rainbow of great achievement! What a feeling! Awareness of the hard work and determination! Congratulating myself for such great accomplishment! Delight at having been able to settle down with my dream! I had succeeded! So proudly proud of myself!

My partner reminds me every now and then to look back and gaze at the path I walked mainly on my own! The thing is that we easily forget what we have been through, what we have achieved! As I glance back, a bright smile spreads across my face!  

To myself, to family and friends, to all who came across my path and helped me make my dream come true, thanks!

Jay Cee Moon ©